So You Have A Blog ??

Almost everyday I get emails and texts from former fellow students in college , and once from a girl I knew in high school, that have one thing in common; a link to a blog they've created where, like me, they hope to change the world (I hope) and build a name one character at a time. All this people are ambitious, creative and aggressive in different ways and areas, and as I follow the links hoping that generating a page-view amounts to my good deed a day, I wonder, in this crowded web "real-estate", how does one stand out?

A Welcome Note

Welcome to my very own blog which is about me, my experiences in life, what lessons I've learnt from them and how I view the world.

My name is Kailani ( Lani) Mo, introspective, imaginative, opinionated, bursting at the seams, girl next door. My introspection is a daughter of years of  living in an environment of mental, emotional and physical abuse and neglect, growing up, which created a victim mentality in me. 

I was born Carolyn M on an October night ( not too sure, but I always thought of myself as a night baby) many moons ago, the first born of three to a young couple, my parents who I am lucky are still alive and married to each other to-date- I empathize with families that have gone through divorce, growing up without your family no matter how discordant is unenviable.

I have not had an easy past. I have battled and still struggle with low self esteem, attention seeking behaviour, approval addiction, lack of identity, addiction, depression, attempted suicide and constant suicidal thoughts.But I am trying to build a better present and future for myself.  I changed names as an attempt to distance myself with the memories of a past I hate to remember. In other ways also, and with new vigor I fight the demons of past and dream the dreams of childhood. My dream is to leave a legacy of determination and change in regards to the issues mentioned above, that's why I included this song.

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You can read more of my story and articles, poems and general  opinions on the  causes I'm passionate about on this blog.